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I really hope someone reads this. This is my story: I'm a 23 year old male. I developed anxiety and panic attacks on October 28th, 2022. It all began with an unexpected and massive panic attack. I was at work ready to clock out when I noticed that my heart rate was pretty jacked(150-160bpm). I freaked out and I ended up going to the ER and pretty much all tests ran back as normal. I did get admitted just for observation. This kept going on for nearly seven hours after the cardiologists decided to run me a trial of metoprolol. It was pretty traumatizing. Ever since then I have not been the same person. I have gone back to the ER two more times ever since then for the same reason. All of this caused me to develop agoraphobia. I was still able to go to work, run my errands and even hang out with friends but could not travel far or walk on very far distances. I was improving without meds or therapy. I was also afraid of working out and cardio because I feared a fast heart rate but I even improved greatly on that. All of this pretty much took a massive relapse last night when I decided to do a bit of exposure therapy. I decided to drive on the freeway and see how far I could go before getting a panic attack. It was a mistake. I got as far as 10 miles before I ended up freaking out. I made an exit very quickly and headed back home. I was getting calmed but then out of nowhere I began to feel very tense and more panic attacks began to hit but I was able to bring them down. I could not sleep all of last night and I lost my appetite. I have been feeling horrible all day. I tried going to the gym in the morning but my fast heart and palpitations said no. I am afraid that I won't be able to even leave my house anymore. What worries me the most is my job. I need my job. I'm trying to stay out as much as I can to not turn into a home-bound person. I'm yet to see my doctor in two days. I will let her know that I am slowly getting worse and that I am going to start getting CBT and possibly meds to avoid getting worse. As of now I have 40 capsules of hydroxyzine 25mg. I haven't taken none since I haven't had to yet but I might just take one at work if I don't get better. All of this makes me sad. I was already an anxious person but not this bad. I just need to fix this before it's too late.

this last month i’ve had to fully accept that i’ve lost all of my friends. i’ve never been one to have a lot of friends but i’ve always kept the ones i’ve loved close. recently, me and my closest friends had a falling out and now we no longer speak. it is so painful to see them hanging out and enjoying life like i never existed. i also live with these people so i can never escape them, everyday i have to listen to them make plans without me and continue to have fun without me. today, i turn 21 years old and i’m watching my friends have fun at the plans we made for my birthday while i sit at home alone. i need advice on how to get through this.

It has been 4 months since I broke up with my fiancée... some backstory before our engagement she broke up with me 6 times, the last time she did it she said she won't do it again and she wants to be with me... however she always kept saying things like "I am not sure if I love you...but hey I want to spend my life with you."
She would do things that are totally mad, like she would say "if someone said this to me I would be so mad..but I think you are fat I wish you had a more fit body like six packs and smaller butt.".
She would always fight with me whenever I don't do things her way..like me not talking to her on my exams day I only texted. Bare in mind that if I failed those exams I would have been dismissed from my university. The last time she did it she said "F*** my life, you don't want to be there for me and I have to suffer alone" just because I didn't talk on phone for a day and a half.only texted...during my exams and hers too.
I couldn't take it and broke up with her, she kept saying that I blindsided her and should support her in therapy, but I felt my body on full alert...4 months later she still messages me to tell me how terrible I am and how much she hates me

Hi guys!
Before I get to the core, very short background.
3 march I got a mail that my data was compromised on some websites, so I changed my psn password.
14th of march I got a mail that my log-in had been changed, unfortunately I totally missed that mail. 2 nights ago, the app sent me messages that someone was trying to log in to my account... soooo. Yesterday I wanted to play again, and couldn't log in... tried to reset password but didn't get link, that's hw I found out that my log-in had been changed and I found that week old mail.
I called ps support and they gave me my old account back, and a password reset, but for "safety" they removed my ps4 as primary and asked me to do that myself again when logged in.
It worked, I reset the password and could log in, but as soon as I registered this ps4 pro as primary got "you've got signed out of psn" and I have not been able to log in anymore since.
Reset password doesn't help, I can log in to the app, on the website, but not on the console, it displays that my log in or password are false... I called psn support again and they do not understand the problem. Since my account and password obviously work. Strangely enough the app also displayed 2 ps5 consoles I could connect to, but I don't own any... I mailed that to support and those 2 are now gone. My ps4 is not in the list because it's not set as primary, and to set it, I have to be able to log in first... the ps does recognise me as the owner because it shows my picture, name and ps+, internet is ok but just logging in to psn network is not.... Could it be that they banned my serial number or blacklisted it or so because my ID has been stolen before and they just didn't notice on the phone?
What have I tried myself?
Safe mode: system software update. I says 5.10 is available and updates, but keeps on finding that same software to update. In normal dashboard it says I already have the latest software. Took a full backup of my ps4 and through safe mode did a complete system reïnitialisation by USB stick... It still is downloading updates for games but I can't play any because I still can not sign in.
Any idea's? I have to wait 't ill Monday to contact psn again.
Thanks all for any suggestions!

So I’m new to the game but I used to play overwatch I’m mainly a tank and support player. What are good suggestions and tips for me as a new support and tank player
I feel my main problem as a support is knowing how to deal with flankers and still heal my tank and my dps without dying. While with tank my problem is now managing my damage intake and also not knowing where my supports are and how they can heal me
Any advice is welcome as well as hero advice is much welcome

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Hello there!
I'm using Android 13 and I really like the ability to quickly change some of the phone settings such as Bluetooth, NFC, Wi-Fi, Flashlight etc. However, I need to control more settings that are available after 1st swipe down. I use Asus Zenfone 9 and I have already disabled new big Notification Bar tiles.
After 1st swipe down I get: 6 Quick Settings icons and huge Notification Bar. After 2nd swipe down I get: 4×3 Quick Settings grid (in this case there're pretty big unused space in the bottom of the screen).
What I'm looking for is the ability to increase the number of the settings which I could control after the first swipe. For example, 12 Quick Settings icons (and reduced Notification Bar).
Another option might be to get 4×3 Quick Settings grid right after 1st swipe down (not sure if this is possible).
I would be grateful if you could share the ideas how to achieve this on Android 13. I just don't understand why should I swipe down twice all the time xD
Thanks!

I feel horrible. I want to leave the world without dying. No, I want to die, but I fear death. I fear the possibility that life can get better. Each day, I feel disgusted to be in my body. I hate how I look, how I act, and how even my friends don't like me. How can anybody like me when I can't even love myself? When I feel like crying and throwing up each time I see myself? When I start crying each time I think of me? I wish life could get better. I probably sound spoiled. There's probably millions our there wishing for my life. I deserve this. Like every human being, I deserve basic needs. But unlike everyone else, I deserve to be drowned by my self hatred, by negative thoughts, by loneliness, and by desolation. I deserve it but I'm spoiled and want more than I deserve. I always change myself to be liked by others. I'm disgusting. I hate it when I feel like crying each time I'm aware of my body and existence. I'm not funny, I'm not nice, I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I'm not needed, I'm a waste, I'm a terrible friend, I'm a terrible sister, I'm a terrible daughter, I'm a terrible person, and I am better off desolate from everyone. I feel so alone in this world. I feel like I'm just an investment for my parents. A failed one. My friends probably find me annoying and a nuisance. I especially hate how I look. I hate every feature of my face and body. I wish I was pretty. Then, maybe I'd get pretty privileges and be wanted. Just when I'm about to accept myself, I compare myself to others. I feel like a horrible friend. I want a good friend but I can't even be that good friend. I want to become a different person. I am the person I hate the most in the world. I hate me. I don't know me. Who am I? Am I merely someone made to mirror others just to blend in? Am I someone who's not to be known? I want to restart. A second chance at life but I know I'll never get that second chance because I've ruined my only chance but maybe it will get better. Things are going terribly but there's nothing I can do about it. Only vent to myself and cry just as i am doing right now. I desperately want to talk to someone. Who would I even talk to? My parents? No. My friends? No. They would never care. I feel alone. I hate me. I want to die but I'm too scared to.

Hello,
Will spare the usual story between a partner and someone who is DA (dismissive avoidant), as we probably all know precisely how that goes. During our 8 months I went through some serious introspection, trial by fire, and therapy to realign myself with my Secure attachment. A brief explanation about how this manifested: During my DA ex's withdrawal and distancing, I was first anxious, and then I became much more secure in myself to not chase, and to entertain myself in the meantime. To essentially not bother them, or pester them, and to rely on myself for security and safety. It was extremely successful on my end, and I started to see some light at the end of the tunnel. A problem I ran into was my needs simply were not being met, but that is another story. Shortly after I had managed to be secure in myself during my DA ex's distance and avoidance, I received a phone call which essentially ended the relationship abruptly, seemingly out of nowhere. Now I am pretty confused, because I sincerely believed I was doing the correct thing by tackling my anxious leaning attachment and returning back to secure. To quote my ex "I don't feel like you're obsessed with me anymore". I was obsessed, and still am, but it used to be an extremely unhealthy obsession where I would lose sleep and weight and appetite, all the good anxiety related stuff that occurs when your partner starts to distance themselves.
Now the question is, what is it about me leaning back into my secure attachment that suddenly unearthed the relationship ? I hope this is not a mind reading post, only asking if this is a common theme. I think it's safe we take my ex's word for it, in her words "I do not know what I want, I need a break". NOT mind reading, taking her for her word, why is it when I stopped chasing and became once more secure in myself that this was her revelation? To make it more confusing, once she contacted me after having asked for the break, she requested the break go on more, and I responded essentially with I wasn't ok with it and we were through. With this she admitted she does in fact know what she wants, and wants a future with me no matter what. That is where I am left now.
Question consolidated: What about my returning to my secure attachment in my DA, SA leaning AP relationship ultimately drove my DA ex away?
Thanks for any insight

I'm starting to wonder if we can get a class action lawsuit going and bankrupt these fuckers for good. It's been almost 6 years since I woke up and left and coming to terms with how damaged I came out of this has been, and at times still very much is, very difficult. It's not as easy as just being aware of what happened to me and my mind. There's also the question of what can I actually do now at this later stage in my life. Not just the question of what I'm actually capable of doing but what actually is worth doing? I really don't know. I feel like I've dug myself so deep into this mundane lonely existence (while brainwashed into thinking I was pleasing "jehovah") of just living to survive that it's literally all I can do at this point. Social mobility is pretty out of the question for me and again, I don't even necessarily feel like that's something worth pursuing even if I had the means. Im thinking I should give up all desires altogether and become a Buddhist lol a life of being content with nothing. Because that's what this religion has left me with.
"...set of symptoms, ranging in severity, experienced by those who have participated in or left behind authoritarian, dogmatic, and controlling religious groups and belief systems. Symptoms include cognitive, affective, functional, sexual, and social/cultural issues as well as developmental delays. RTS occurs in response to two-fold trauma: first the prolonged abuse of indoctrination from a controlling religious community, and secondly the act of leaving the controlling religious community."
https://geoffreywallis.medium.com/1914-betrayal-understanding-religious-trauma-syndrome-in-jehovahs-witnesses-575c472b9886

Everything was coming together perfectly. I kept seeing repeating numbers, positive confirming cards/readings, dreams, etc. I kept a positive mindset and fought off bad thoughts with affirmations. But then, one evening, I did the one thing I knew would trigger me. And now my foundations have been shaken and I need to process through this limitations (again), and recoup. I feel defeated knowing that it’ll take a couple of more days or so of actively manifesting when I was so close! But I also know that maybe this is beneficial for me, because I have the opportunity to process through these limitations. And I know that everything is ready for me and the only thing needed now, is for me to be ready so I can fully embrace my manifestations. Just sucks that I sabotaged it.

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I am black, grew up in a 95% black country. But as far I can remember my primary attraction was always mostly towards white men, as a kid my first celebrity crush was Kevin Costner and I wanted to be Whitney Houston and so on.
I started to have sex at an early age, I knew I always wanted to bottom but I never really enjoyed it. When I told other bottom friends that bottoming was always painful no matter what the size and the guy expertise they never understood why(me either).
The first time I got insanely crazy about sex was with a 42 years old French white guy, I was 21. when he stopped talking to me I went through a depression (didn’t know what depression was until recently), it lasted almost a year. It was the first time I felt like needing a man in my entire existence. My entourage could see me suffering but couldn’t put a finger on it.
2 years later I met my Belgian white boyfriend we were together for 3 years( the happiest years of my life). He made me discover myself, my sexuality, my identity, gave me the best sex I ever had. And with him I started to collect the dots that I only feel that intense emotion and connection only with white men.
Before him I already had sex with more than 70 guys by the age of 23, and only 1 black guy gave me enjoyable painless sex. I could get fucked multiple times a day by him and only feel pleasure while the others were mostly painful.
After him I dated a Latin guy for almost a year, I was madly in love with him, but it’s now that I recognize that I was in love with who he was but sex was never really that great, most of the time I ended up bleeding during penetration, I gave him sex cause I was horny and he wanted but not because it was enjoyable.
Moved to the US in 2017, I had a lot of sex with every ethnicity, there were always the same pattern, most of white guys give me painless sex while with the other non whites were extremely painful with me bleeding.
2020 was THE COUP DE GRACE, met that British guy with 9 inches, we fuck always without lube, no pain involved at all, never enjoyed getting fucked like that, it felt like a drug, my whole body was at his mercy, no gag reflex, no repulsion. He was shocked seeing how easily I took his cock everywhere, lockdown came and he became distant.. went through a severe clinical depression and anxiety, I’m still on medication….
My therapist did a throughout job, we found out that my attraction to white men is not even comparable to other ethnic groups. And that I’m also only happy in relationships while my body counts is over 500.
Now I hate myself, I don’t see a way out of it when living in a country where white guys see u as a useless cumdump. While European guys are so considerate, respectful, don’t treat you like disposable garbage for their last option. It’s becoming increasingly unsustainable at this point and I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel

This is the sixth track from Animal Collective's seventh album '' Feels ''. What are your thoughts regarding this song? How do you think it compares to the rest of the discography? How would you rate it out of 10?(decimals allowed)
SUGGESTED SCALE:1-4: Not good. Regularly skip.5: It’s okay, but I might have to be in the right mood to listen to it.6: Slightly better than average. I won’t skip it, but I wouldn’t choose to put it on.7: This is a good song. I enjoy it quite a bit.8-9: Really enjoyable songs. I rank them pretty high overall.10: Masterpiece, magnum opus, or similar terminology.
Sorry guys for not making it so daily anymore, doing IB right now and school just always gets in the way.
Google Sheet with all of the results thus far:
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1. Did You See the Words: 9.8
2. Grass: 9.73
3. Flesh Canoe: 8.44
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I (21 M) was walking to a friend's house. I'm in a college town and most of the time I see people, I genuinely assume they're college students.
I see these two girls start walking down train tracks. One of thems walking in a blanket which seems like a safety hazard in and of itself. I take a quick picture and send it to my friend saying "people walking on the tracks is mad sus". One of the girls shouts "don't take pictures please". "Alright", I shout back. For context, they're like 100 plus feet away from me at the time.
But, either way, I respect people's consent to not be photographed. I immediately deleted it.
Anyways, up until this point, I'd personally arue that there's no asshole here. At this point I didn't even know for sure if they were minors, and I was doing everything I could to be respectful.
then a car pulls up.. Mom rolls down the window asking if I took pictures of her daughters. Here's where I think I messed up and might be the AH. First thing first, she asks to see my phone. I explain how I don't have the photo and immediately deleted it. She asks why I took the photo in the first place. I should've been more honest and said something like "I thought it was a bit weird that they were walking on train tracks". Instead, I give a still true but less detailed explanation about how it's like when you're on Snapchat and you take pictures and just send them to your friends. I emphasize that I wasn't trying to have pictures of her daughters, I was just trying to explain to my friend what I saw as I saw it.
She says stuff like "I get how Snapchat works. I don't get why you need pictures of my daughters" or something like that. And that's where I responded "I was taking a picture of the damn train tracks". I definitely ended up using a lot of colorful language in this interaction just cuz I felt like I was being attacked for a super meaningless reason. Like, massive respect to the parent for investigating and making sure everything was alright,, but, even when she saw me, I was nowhere near her kids. Again, they had been following the train tracks, and I was following the sidewalk. Anyways, I specifically told her that I understand her concern and I get that she cares about her kids safety and I respected that. But I also brought up how her kids probably shouldn't even be on the train tracks.
She mentioned how her kids were smart and they were together so she wasn't worried. In my opinion, that's still just dumb, in general. There's a reason they say not to play by train tracks. I think I even mentioned to her that I didnt even think it was legal to walk down train tracks.
Anyways, I tell her I appreciate her concern and I get why she's worried but that we shouldn't keep having to have this conversation because "I didn't do jack shit anyways". I tell her something like "it was good having this conversation though, I'll see you around" or something like that and just walk off.
So, AITA?

First thanks to everyone for being patient with me.... Ok so I want to deliver oil by train through the complete chain. However, after the refinery it makes sense on my map to go pick up bricks with same train and drop those bricks at the second stop of the line (it's the oil barrel to oil drop icon) then have trucks pick up those bricks and take to town. Now, it's the same stop obviously as where my train drops barrels and picks up oil on the first pass through. How in the shit do I do this? My train has 3 oil transport carts and 3 brick carts attached already. 2nd question. I have 2 truck (really wagon) making places on different sides of the map but everytimr I buy a new wagon it always comes out of first factory. Anyway to change this? Thanks in advance.

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Hi Everyone,
I'm very new to Rocketbook. Unfortunately, I filled out the notebook before trying the app. I signed up using my Google Account and that went fine. I added google drive and photos as a destination and that seemed to go fine. I then tried to send my first scan to both and separately to google drive as well as google photos. I keep getting: "Error contacting server. Please ensure that your device has network connectivity." when it tries to send it to Google Drive. It doesn't complain about google photos but they never show up in google photos so that's not working either.
I've tried changing to another google drive account and that doesn't work either now.
I checked the help but it doesn't make sense. How can I disconnect an account when it doesn't give me that option anywhere?
Very frustrated! Thought this was going to be awesome.. not so far!
Any help is appreciated!

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Then yesterday was the big mother. A small moment of him pulling away from me tripped the switch for the whole breakup conversation. I don't want to get into the finer details right now... What I'm looking for here is just support. Because I feel like I'm dying. I've been crying for the past 24 hours. We decided to take a small break and he's staying with his friend for the weekend. So I'm here, in our house, with our cats, and all our stuff and pictures and furniture and everything we've shared... I feel like I'm going to fucking lose it.
My best friend is coming over later to talk things out, but until then I'm just alone here, scream crying, scaring the cats away, wondering if our relationship is over. I'm in so much fucking pain and I don't know how to deal with it. I see other posts of people with kids getting divorced and people's siblings sleeping with their exes, so I know that this happens all the time and it could be worse... But it hurts so fucking bad you guys. I honestly feel like I'm going to lose my mind.
How do you separate a 7 year partnership? Where would I live? I think of all the phone calls to utilities and such, and the fact that we're on the same phone plan, and that all his friends that later became my friends would BAM, instantly be shut off from me forever. I don't know... I'm just hurting so so very badly and I feel like a drowning person flailing around for any hope of rescue. My friend is amazing and I can't wait to see her, I just... I'm freaking out right now and it's hard to breathe. I need comfort and support so badly, and I hate it because all I want is my boyfriend.
Thank you for reading, and I'm really sorry if I broke any Reddit rules.